Baby Hunter

Today was a very tough day. Last night baby #3's umbilical cord prolapsed. We went emergently to the hospital, and learned my water had broken earlier in the week. At the time we arrived last night, his heart rate was still around 155, meaning he was still alive and doing ok, but we learned there was no chance our precious son would be able to survive. Around 5:30 this morning, Dr. Smith came in to see me. He was able to tell the baby's feet had descended, and his heart rate had decreased to 60-70. Dr. Emig began taking call at 7:00 a.m. It was not by chance, or luck, but by God's design she was on call. She was absolutely amazing to walk this journey with me. She cried with me, and empathized with us. Around 11:30, she did another ultrasound, which confirmed our sweet baby boy no longer had a heartbeat. At that point she decided it was time to deliver him. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done. Going through labor knowing I was not getting a cute, chubby, little bundle of snuggly love at the end. I was scared because I didn't know what he would look like, I was scared because I was afraid I couldn't do it. I wanted to give up many times. I didn't give up, and our angel baby was born at 12:17 p.m. He was perfectly formed. His precious tiny 10 fingers and 10 toes. His ears were perfect. It is amazing to me how perfectly formed he was, oh so tiny, but oh so human. It aches my heart he was legally still able to be aborted. I want people to know how human he was. He was created in God's image. While we do not know why, or understand, we know God has a plan. Baby Hunter had a purpose in this life, and we will work to ensure God's Kingdom is glorified through his birth and death. We were perfectly content with our two precious children. We were not planning on adding any more children to our family. We do not understand why. We were not planning on adding anymore children to our family, yet God gave us one, and then he was taken away from us. In His Word, God clearly tells us that all of our days were written in His book before even one of them came to be. Hunter completed his life's purpose in 18 short weeks, all while living in utero. As his mom, I will work to ensure God's Kingdom is glorified through his life and death. 

Joy Always -